We all have our problems, even I have mine.

It was a deep agonizing pain that I was going through, a pain that was clamping me for too long, a pain that had become my companion. But, when you entered my life I saw a new beginning, a beginning that my mind, my heart, my soul was yearning for. At last I thought my savior has come and will rescue me bring me at peace once again.

My last relation, it wasn’t a relation also, my last friend left me with soggy feeling of rejection and distaste, I had lost a great deal of confidence in myself. So with you, I wasn’t too sure of the way of conducting myself, I just followed your lead, did everything to get your approval, not mindful of the words and action, not thinking of the way I was behaving, I just wanted to get accepted by you, I was longing for company. Only said that what u wanted to hear, only did that what you wanted to do, in the hope that I might get accepted this time around. My occupied mind was the reward I looking for, I just wanted to get rid of the past memories.

It was also the time when I learnt that you were travelling the same path, you yourself were on the road of recovery of a broken relation, a relation that was much serious and had promises of forever. I wanted to share your pain and make you believe that life indeed is beautiful and these are nothing but some wrong doing of God that you just need to accept. I wanted to be your shadow, wanted to turn your life around.

I guess I failed miserably in my endeavors as the closer I got to you, the farther you went, I never asked the reason nor you gave any. History repeated itself yet again I am again in pain, again the feeling of being rejected. Too frightened to ask for answers from you as the answers might assert my fear – that I have been rejected yet again….

My Love for Sports

To be honest when I was young I could hardly understand cricket or lawn tennis or football or any other sport for that matter but used to stare at the T.V. screen intently as it was the only thing that used to run on our T.V. My father, I finally have got a chance to tell the world, is the ultimate devotee/disciple of the religion Sports. So you all can well imagine how my journey of following sports began, initially it was restricted to admiring the dashing, uber fit and handsome sports persons.. to name a few, my first love Mr.Rahul Dravid, Marat Safin, Andy Roddick Kaka and so on....

Who wouldn't fall for them??

Later, I started asking the rules of the game, as a true Indian, and was swept away by Cricket first amongst all the sports, I still remember the 1996 Semi final loss of India to the then mighty Sri Lankans. From then the game started fascinating me and finally Cricket got me glued to it. I was witness to some fantastic cricket since then, from  the World Cup of 1999 when Lance Klusner was adjudged as the Man of the Match though South Africa wasn't even the winner, to the Australia's Tour of India in 2000-01 and that epic match where Harbajan took a hat-trick to the when I had gone to the Eden Gardens, but on the third day and the infinte number of matches and series following that..

Tennis, my second love, though a tough competition to cricket has managed to woe me since childhood.Two weeks of the Grand Slams were always awaited with sheer excitement. The subtle rivalry between Federer and Roddick made way for the fierce rivalry between Nadal and Federer where Federer got the taste of his own medicine. And have delightfully watched all Party poopers who had time and again spoiled the run of the World'd Best, be it Fernando Gonazalez in the Australian Open or Jo Wilfred Tsonga or Marcos Baghdatis or Robert Soldering in the French Open.

At this point of time, so many matches, performances, rivalry all are coming to me but the space is too less to jot all of them down... Having said that as a follower of Sports in India, one day will always be etched in my heart... Most of you have already guessed that, Yes it is 02nd April, 2011 when our dream came true....

There is some element in sports that attracts me, draws me towards it, I guess it was always there in my genes... Surely this journey is to continue for a long long time.....

Football still has to make its way in though.... lol

All in all this an affair which is here to last!!!

Snapshots

I am a complete SHUTTER-BUG...

Photographs rightly capture the essence of the moment and I don't leave even a slight chance to seize it!!!

Just that I love being clicked..

Okay enuf words.. Now will let the photographs do the talking...

Today Morning only my Chacha called up to ask us out for a trip to Guwahati and Shillong.... I am so looking forward to it!!!

Here are photos of things I am Looking forward in the trip!!!

Travelling in this Train.. 

Trying this Adventure Sport..

And immerse myself in all this Scenic Beauty!!!

So Swimming it is!!

My mum’s fav dialogue.. “Beta, You are just Perfect”

My fav dialogue.. “Mom, even if I become like Yokozuna, you would still say the same line… “

I have never stopped whining about my weight and my mum has never stopped assuring me that I am almost perfect. From so many years I have been thinking to join this and that and may be shed a few kilos but all talks, no action at all, yes that is the level of my determination. Don’t get judgmental now; I am just a lil lazy sometimes…

Last winter with all my courage I joined Yoga classes, boy, I thought just a few days and I will get in shape and started building castles in the air, but only after a few days realized that getting up early is not my thing plus Yoga classes bored me to death!!!!

But give me a lil sympathy here, it was winters and no company and no music and plus no hot guy too in the Yoga Class… means NO MOTIVATION…. I had to discontinue it man!!

But this summer again, the Keeda(urge) of getting into shape engulfed my mind and this time I have played my cards jus right!!!

Finally my thoughts have travelled to become my words and then transformed in Action!!

So Swimming it is this time this summer and mind you I haven’t made the same mistakes this time, I have chosen a semi early morning slot that too with a company in the name of Anu di who has a Scooty (Biggest Motivation) as I don’t have to walk to the class and plus on my way back I can listen to some music, only the hot guy is still missing :p

So pray for me folks that this time I really shed some kilos but before that wait pray that I don’t get bored of  swimming too :P :P ;) ;)

Just for your Opinions:

Do u all also think I am Perfect like my mom does?? Or I need to go for swimming classes??

Will wait for your comments and reviews…..

My Life via Quotes

Quotes - The one sentence, the few words that can completely revive you, cheer you and may be motivate you to the highest levels. I can't speak for the masses but for me quotes are magic. I do live my life via quotes and they are the biggest biggest source of inspiration of my life. so let me take you through my collection of modest yet marvellous quotes....

"You Reap what you Sow"

“What goes around comes around”

"Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen."

"Don't wait. The time will never be just right."

"There is no substitute to hard work."

"No regrets only memories moments and lessons learnt"

"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing."

"Everyone is gifted. But not everyone opens their present"

"The lotus in mucky water is a live metaphor of how our environment has no effect on us if we stick to our essence!"

"If u don't know where u stand with someone in a relationship it’s better to walk away"

"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."

“Never let your memories be greater than your dreams."

“People are just about as happy as they make up their minds to be.”

"Best Relations Do Not Need Promises, Terms or Conditions. They Just Need Two Wonderful People. 

One who can Trust & One Who Can Understand"

"Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn."

Life....!

It is just a game..
After we die..
Nobody will remember our name..
Don't waste your life like a lame..
Endure all the pain..
Cherish all the gain..
Here I am saying it again...
It is only a game..
After we die..
We will just be a forgotten name!!!!

To a Lost Friend......

I am terribly troubled. Not finding a way. 

Everything is falling apart .I look around to see that you are the first and last person who can help me.

For all the friendship we shared, barring the fights and ego tussles, if you can ever forgive me please, do. I never realized that you were also hurt until I started thinking it from your point of view. Its a burden that I am living with. It is like a never ending movie roll that runs in my mind.

It was definitely not our first fight, earlier we had also fought, got separated, did not talk for months, but we had always patched up. But this time I don't think it will happen, as the silence between us has been there  for too long. The thought that we wont talk ever in our lives gives me teary eyes and sleepless nights. Like last time when you had initiated to patch up as there was a feeling within you that was keeping you at unrest. Here I am, living with that feeling for so many months. Even if I will call you now, you will say that you have nothing to say and you have moved on. Okay I get it, but  please help me to move on too. If not for friendship, then for humanity's sake, take me out of this abyss.

All this while anger was supreme, and "how could you do this to me?" dominated my thoughts. I was living in a state of anger and vendetta. Now that has only been replaced by helplessness as I have lost all direction in my life, as I always feel that one conversation is pending and I really thought it was your fault and one day you will come to me and say that sorry which I deserve. I will then tell you what I have been through... that life without you has been nothing but boring and worthless but now I cant wait anymore. I am saying sorry for everything as for friendship is no profit or loss account, not your gain or my loss. I have lost myself completely. I never talk about you to anyone else as I have always thought that the best person to talk about you is only you..

I miss u profoundly..

I miss us much more.....