We all have our problems, even I have mine.

It was a deep agonizing pain that I was going through, a pain that was clamping me for too long, a pain that had become my companion. But, when you entered my life I saw a new beginning, a beginning that my mind, my heart, my soul was yearning for. At last I thought my savior has come and will rescue me bring me at peace once again.

My last relation, it wasn’t a relation also, my last friend left me with soggy feeling of rejection and distaste, I had lost a great deal of confidence in myself. So with you, I wasn’t too sure of the way of conducting myself, I just followed your lead, did everything to get your approval, not mindful of the words and action, not thinking of the way I was behaving, I just wanted to get accepted by you, I was longing for company. Only said that what u wanted to hear, only did that what you wanted to do, in the hope that I might get accepted this time around. My occupied mind was the reward I looking for, I just wanted to get rid of the past memories.

It was also the time when I learnt that you were travelling the same path, you yourself were on the road of recovery of a broken relation, a relation that was much serious and had promises of forever. I wanted to share your pain and make you believe that life indeed is beautiful and these are nothing but some wrong doing of God that you just need to accept. I wanted to be your shadow, wanted to turn your life around.

I guess I failed miserably in my endeavors as the closer I got to you, the farther you went, I never asked the reason nor you gave any. History repeated itself yet again I am again in pain, again the feeling of being rejected. Too frightened to ask for answers from you as the answers might assert my fear – that I have been rejected yet again….

My Love for Sports

To be honest when I was young I could hardly understand cricket or lawn tennis or football or any other sport for that matter but used to stare at the T.V. screen intently as it was the only thing that used to run on our T.V. My father, I finally have got a chance to tell the world, is the ultimate devotee/disciple of the religion Sports. So you all can well imagine how my journey of following sports began, initially it was restricted to admiring the dashing, uber fit and handsome sports persons.. to name a few, my first love Mr.Rahul Dravid, Marat Safin, Andy Roddick Kaka and so on....

Who wouldn't fall for them??

Later, I started asking the rules of the game, as a true Indian, and was swept away by Cricket first amongst all the sports, I still remember the 1996 Semi final loss of India to the then mighty Sri Lankans. From then the game started fascinating me and finally Cricket got me glued to it. I was witness to some fantastic cricket since then, from  the World Cup of 1999 when Lance Klusner was adjudged as the Man of the Match though South Africa wasn't even the winner, to the Australia's Tour of India in 2000-01 and that epic match where Harbajan took a hat-trick to the when I had gone to the Eden Gardens, but on the third day and the infinte number of matches and series following that..

Tennis, my second love, though a tough competition to cricket has managed to woe me since childhood.Two weeks of the Grand Slams were always awaited with sheer excitement. The subtle rivalry between Federer and Roddick made way for the fierce rivalry between Nadal and Federer where Federer got the taste of his own medicine. And have delightfully watched all Party poopers who had time and again spoiled the run of the World'd Best, be it Fernando Gonazalez in the Australian Open or Jo Wilfred Tsonga or Marcos Baghdatis or Robert Soldering in the French Open.

At this point of time, so many matches, performances, rivalry all are coming to me but the space is too less to jot all of them down... Having said that as a follower of Sports in India, one day will always be etched in my heart... Most of you have already guessed that, Yes it is 02nd April, 2011 when our dream came true....

There is some element in sports that attracts me, draws me towards it, I guess it was always there in my genes... Surely this journey is to continue for a long long time.....

Football still has to make its way in though.... lol

All in all this an affair which is here to last!!!